i dont mind anything. all i want is to be with you. i know its undeserving. but i'm holding on so i could have you and my health back.
thats all i'm fighting for. but i'm tired... i'm tired of all the pain and therapy.. of the reactions you give me.
but thank you for agreeing to go school with me.. simply seeing you, your smiles, really made the pain lessen. idk if its the focus or smth.. but i swear its true.
i know it is hard for you. i know somethings are bothering you. i want to be there for you. like how i used to. like how you told me to be strong, and be your strength.
i really will do anything just to have you back... i can and will give you time.. not for me or you to forget us, but us to feel the need for each other genuinely. with no prides left standing between us..
tbh living life with risks made me see many things. i'm sorry that i keep wanting to meet you.. i'm just afraid it will spread anytime, and there will be no time left. i'm not being pathetic, i am stating the facts, the cold hard truth. bc it is spreading, and it is becoming a constant daily fear for me.
honestly, i'm just afraid i wont be able to cherish you anymore..
