its so hard to be vulnerable to anyone anymore.. i really want to just rant, be truthful about my feelings and my fears. no family, no you, no one.
i understand you mean well by asking me to be optimistic.. i am trying to.. but the feeling when news break, when there is no joy in this, its so hard to be joyful.. i cant pour it out... can i just be weak for awhile in your arms..? i am not self pathetic but its just my feelings showing. its just me being afraid.
i'm sorry. i hope you dont see this bc its just me pouring my feelings. i know you will get angry seeing this. so i really hope you dont. i hope no one does.
i'll hold on.
我希望有一天你会对我说，“我爱你”。
